The Experiences of Steve Scheberle in the 7-Day Alpha-1 Training Program
Steve Scheberle
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Email: sscheberle@my.devry.edu
Address: 9506 Valley Ranch Parkway East #1011, Irving, Tx 75063
I am sitting across the table from Grace and I am thinking to myself "what did she just say" and the ego immediately takes the thought and tries to hide it from my conscious before I can internalize it. This internalization was something that the ego knew could not happen or the "hooks" in my mind would begin to fall slowly away over the next seven days.
"Did you hear me" Grace utters.
"It is my ego" was my response with a slight amount of hesitance and an unsure tone. Meanwhile the first hook like that used for fishing a really big ocean fish falls away.
Moments pass and I begin to ponder what has been introduced to me. The heavy details of the next six and a three quarter days follow.
"So what you are saying to me is that the ego is all the bad things I though I was and I am really the good things...all these bad things are not me they are the ego and I have to separate myself from it".
Grace goes on to clarify and train me in hindrances the ego might use to keep me from doing the work I was at Biocybernaut Santa Clara California to do. This "trashcan for my mind" as one of the trainees called it is exactly what this wonderful environment called Biocybernaut became.
Time to take out the trash
It was a late night as usual. I hadn‘t slept more than five hours and was walking a twenty plus minute effort two hours early for the Biocybernaut Institute Santa Clara California. I had woken up that morning and walked most of the way to the institute. When I noticed that I should go back to the hotel to get a bite to eat. After my short walk in the misty morning and breakfast I became bored with the room and didn‘t really want to introduce anything into my consciousness like music or television. I really didn‘t want to work on school work as I promised myself I would finish the night before and just focus on the tasks at hand.
It became obvious that after ten to fifteen minutes I had done it to myself again. Such as had been the case for a while I had been very early to things that I was very excited about. Forgetting to remember the time of the start of the training I called my wife and asked for her help in my plight. After rummaging through my Tablet PC for something to occupy me I began to listen to "The Secret" which I had bought on audio book. Read by the author herself I was just amazed at the attention to detail in regards to her discipline were unique and without equal, listening I became distracted by the mountains above the San Jose airport. I decided to listen to one of my favorite bands at the time Planet X. This was an album that I had not heard before. Kind of a ceremonial new album for new experience, Universe became the setting for an interesting and monumental day in my growth within the above album titled Universe. The instrumental sounds of the group allowed me to space out to the music giving my worries and thoughts a rest. This would as I later realize be very important.
Soon Grace opens the door of the building I was trying to patiently wait in front of. Introducing herself as such I breached the threshold of a new world. Busily Grace tended to her morning preparations. Leading me into the kitchen to wait for the rest of the trainees I was talking and taking in this new environment.
Again my mind wondered and I ventured into something more concrete and personal in my musical collection. I would open the album I had recorded as a teenager and put together a whirlwind of tracks randomly as they came to me. I sat and watched the media player whip up quite a visual brunch. After having heard several songs I was introduced to other trainees who had arrived. The female walks in and asks where the bathroom is. I was not sure who she was and if I had the authority to allow or deny such a request. I was beside myself I was not sure what to say. Out of the confusion Grace reemerged to discuss the request and the business of this trainee. The thought that this could be another trainee hadn‘t even crossed my mind. I had been in such awe from the instant I walked in that I was flabbergasted by the presence of another human being. I had not felt that way before that I could recall. Now at later recollection I laugh thinking of what this trainee must have been thinking listening to me jabber on about how unsure I was about whether or not she could or could not use the restroom or if they would care or not.
Are you still with us?
I had been sitting at the table discussing the training with the others when Grace calls us into the conference room.
This was the beginning of what would be a very confusing hour or so. The trainer is holding up pictures of the head and showing all sorts of charts and graphs that I am not sure even made much sense until later in the training. I was very excited and began to get into altered states before I was even in the chamber. We watch this presentation and by then I am so impatient that I am about to mentally explode, in a good way, all over the room.
My head is measured and the electrodes are applied after a descriptive insight into just what was going to happen over the next seven days.
More than my ego bargained for
I choose the black light for the first day in the chamber to get a handle on my surroundings. This would prove to both hinder and help greatly the situation I would find myself in. During this first experience I wrote down the following either during or after the enhancement.
Strong understanding emotions condensed into nothing
Stepping back the next statement would have been my ego stepping in with two cents.
Rage against fear
Remembering that the feedback was comforting and not intrusive is a fond recollection of day one. I remember it sounding like a guitar that I had recorded once and that the noise my band made when in highly noisy peaks. I was not able to sit still much of the time. Remarkably, the EEG did not pick up most of the movements unless they turned out to be really substantial.
After the training for the day my interview went well. I was describing what I had encountered in the chamber. Since it was the first day of the training I was not sure what I was in for and so I left everything I knew about meditation at the door so as to gain a great respect for this technology and how I would use it to better myself.
I knew how powerful mood scales were when another trainee was in tears purging themselves of pain from early in their life. And they were only within the first couple of words in the scale. I felt that at this point the rejection to do mood scales this night was a mistake and that I wanted to get started as soon as possible. Grace thought that I should take my list of mood scale words with me and I was to contemplate them that night and in the morning.
As I spoke to my wife the next morning before my walk to Biocybernaut I told her the words that I had to cover that morning.
"Are you alright" she said to me.
I let her know that I was fine and that this was not going to be a walk in the park kind of day. I was aware of my mission at Biocybernaut but my ego had hidden from me the true purpose that I knew. Without the details of how this work would be done I did take the opportunity to attend the training. That morning I was not able to still make the connection I later would.
As I am getting measured while I am giving my interview over mood scale words and thinking back I had averted a lot of pain by not getting into detail as to the torture I felt I was under and in. This had become quite an adventure and the journey was getting better.
My experience in the chamber on day two riled up a childhood riddled with distrust and abandonment. Emotions I had felt from moving early on in life to later trauma of sexual abuse. All of these emotions would hit me in a simulburst as I would coin the phrase in my interview. I remember walking into the chamber and sitting down and knowing the great healing I would endure through overcoming pain. I measured the flowing tears I had before the baseline started as a queue that this indeed would not be a walk in the park.
I did not in any way feel that I was in any danger. I did however find out that my ego would throw at me the equivalent of a lifetime of torment. All of my past pain and suffering was injected into the experience and I found myself observing just how this awareness was showing itself to me. I was relaxed but had an amount of anxiety as the assault continued.
I found solace in forgiveness. Something I had previously tried to involve in my personal development. I had felt over time in the chamber that I now had reason to forgive all those in my life. The overwhelming sense of bliss and joy I felt from this work is immeasurable, even though I was hooked up to an EEG.
I had made out a list of people in my life that I planned on doing forgiveness on while in the chamber and had planned out my time in the chamber.
My interview and after dinner mood were in stark contrast as later in the evening the ego tried to convince me that I had done nothing in the way of personal growth and my dejection about this came about during review of the digital representation of the other trainees. Although I had been very happy with the experience of the day my ego was not having anymore of this forgiveness without a fuss. Grace reminded of my feelings expressed during my interview and how this mood was a direct result of the positive forgiveness I had done. The EEG charts or the "Grand Tour" as it became fondly known as showed pages of theta and delta with alpha bursts that were clear across the head.
After my interview I wrote the following phrase.
Forgiveness will cost only nothing
I realized that night when meditating naturally without my Holosync soundtrack and feeling like I heard and felt a space ship landing in the next room that the bliss followed me the rest of the day and into the night.
I had a smaller list of mood scale words third day and had amassed quite a forgiveness list for the day. Up to this day I had been seeing quite a bit of visual hallucinations and was able to realize that when I was seeing this Geometric Randomness I was producing quite a bit of theta. I noted that I was getting premonitions and had been getting them for quite a while before Biocybernaut and while I was attending the training. I also noted that I was getting lots of bursting shots up my spine. I had been getting them for almost a year and the intensity and frequency only became more real while in attendance at the training.
Forgiveness for the day was done on my childhood family. I knew then as I know now that this is going to be an ongoing process of forgiveness that must continue. The hallucinations continued into eyes open. I would focus the white dot on the wall and then I would make it disappear and then reform on my head. During one enhancement I remember I was confronting my ego and would take this clown nose and put it on the black shadowed ego while the ego would put the white dot on my forehead. I realized that the ego was in the fiber of my physical body and could cause hindrances with my physical body.
On this day I realized that with all my kung fu training I really needed to use my true kung fu training and use my mind to diffuse my ego. I began to become very non-violent with the ego. I would not retaliate in any way violent as that would only be causing harm.
At one point during this and other enhancements I found myself looking through the eyes of my trainer as she walked around the office. I had at many points during this process "trust with all".
While doing forgiveness on my mother I saw her as a child and knew that we would have been friends and played.
It was this day that my ego was not having anymore of the forgiveness work and began to retaliate physically. I had been meditating for over four years using the Holosync Solution and had in the past come down with cold and flu symptoms when I was in states of deep personal growth. This was the first time in over a year that I had gotten sick. I had not been sick since I quit smoking and it had even been before then that I had really not been physically ill.
I had put a piece of dental floss in between my teeth to keep from clinching my jaw during enhancement. This floss had caused as in my youth a very sore throat.
Day four started off with a small list for forgiveness but was not uneventful.
The forgiveness I had done was with the abuser in my childhood. His gift to me was that I could be alone in this Universe. I thought of my daughter frequently during this day as thoughts of her gave me insight into the keys or gifts I was to learn. I did forgiveness on my mother. Uncommon was that I began to feel love for my mother. Something like love was not an emotion I related to my mother for a long time. She had done a lot that had hurt me over the years and it became an emotion that I had alienated myself from when it came to my mom.
Day five was a day of venting and forgiveness. I was sure that at this point that if I was to vent that I should not vent to a mental image of anyone so I vented to the ego of the person. I would tell their ego what it had done to hurt me and how and so on and I knew that somehow the person would get the message of forgiveness. I remember on this day that we had an unknown guest in chamber five. He ended up being the author of the video that we had watched on the "global brain". His name escapes me but his waves do not. I was able to feel his chamber move me from behind before the baseline started. I remember giving energy that was positive to both of the other trainees and to this man as well.
During white noise I was able to decipher a rhythm that had a drum corps feel to it. I imagined the entire world was playing this groove and then a fight had broken out. Instead of the groove stopping all of the people not involved in the fight began to play softer. In the corps movement when a drum line plays quiet the drum line will sometimes lean forward to signify this subtleness in sound. I imagined this unstopping groove accompanied by this forward movement.
Day six brought the list back into play. I found that as a person with a diagnosis of ADHD that the use of a list was helpful to me even though I could not see it. I had written out an agenda and remembered it in the chamber almost in the same order as intension.
On this day I understood wholly engaged indifference. I wrote the following short poem after the chamber experience as follows:
Bliss is not euphoric
It can be
But does not have to be
Understanding the self
Means Understanding nothingness & engaged indifference
From negative emotions &
Emotions of the self
Compassion is
Unconditional Love
Without judgment and resentment
Love is through and because of
The self
Throughout nothingness is where I choose to exist
I stay until I decide
Wholeness
On this day I removed the ego from my physical body and took a body of light.
From that day on I decided to start studying religion in a way that I would have not previously. As an atheist I had not felt any reason to even look into spiritual books for any reason. I had up until this day thought about studying all religions with an open mind but did not have any reason or desire to act on this notion.
Grace told me that she could not really see me fitting into any kind of religious sect as I would not be able to relate fully and would be easily hung up by the negative connotations of each religion. I did know that each religion was represented by great teachers and that it would be insightful mind training for me regardless of non indoctrination into each religion.
I took this insight into day seven and utilized some of the tools from the past six days along with tools the others had used to create a wonderful peak to the experience.
In the first white noise I was able to picture myself meditating in lotus on the table in front of myself. I then flooded my childhood with positive energy that was like water but had a tinge of silver forgiveness. I sent this flood to the places that I had lived and to the place that I lived now. I re-scripted my childhood as a jam session with all of my favorite musicians. One turned to me wondering what we were going to play. We ended up all playing one of my songs and I was on drums. I remembered that I wanted to try to call entities into my chamber. I remember calling in Einstein into the chamber with me. At this point my head began to bobble like a bobble head doll slowly but noticeably. As I called Edison, Babich, and Bill Harris (Centerpoint founder) into the chamber I had these altered learning experiences with each entity. I then called Dr. Hardt (Biocybernaut founder) into the chamber with me. I had a great epiphany this time. I told the doctor that I wanted to be a part of Biocybernaut in any
way that I could. I could be a technician or sell him hardware and software for the centers he had or start a center in Texas or write software to enhance his existing systems...anything was fair game and I was sure that I wanted to be a part of what was being done a Biocybernaut. This entity of Dr. Hardt told me that I should finish college and continue with my education in computer information systems by getting my Masters and PhD in my chosen concentration. Then this entity asked if it could send me anywhere in the world. I of course was so enthusiastic about my new found direction that I agreed while the entity listed off locations all over the world.
This direction for me was a confidence in my decision that I had not had in some time. I had such clarity of mind that after this experience in the chamber I was not able to bring myself back into the meditative state that I was in or had been in.
During eyes open the white dot on the wall had been moving around moving around the focus point on the wall.
I came to the realization that I wanted my wife and I to attend training together as I wanted to be for her what she was for me.
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