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Spiritual Experiences: Pregnant Mother
James V. Hardt, Ph.D.
Pregnant Mother of Three with Unplanned Pregnancy
This pregnant mother of 3 children was 5 months into a
pregnancy that was unplanned and strongly unwanted. She referred to the
growing child within her as "the alien" and was resentfully estranged
from this child in her womb. She also had an excessively protective attachment
to her 3-year-old child leading to some neglect of her 10 and 11-year-old
children. She had some deep-seated issues from childhood and family problems
but launched into her training in a very open way.
She began the forgiveness work earlier and more
enthusiastically than most trainees, and seemed to have fewer excuses about why
she couldn't or shouldn't forgive this or that person or herself. By the
third day she was coming in saying that the huge persistent problems in her
life now had become powerless over her. She looked at them as faded, yellowing
photographs in a picture album. Problems that she recognized as having been
dominating her life were now just faded memories in a photo album that she
could close and put away.
Near the end of her 7-day training, about day 5 or 6, she
had a profound experience of swimming with a whale in a warm sea, communicating
with it in complex songs and also having a telepathic experience of
mind-to-mind contact with the whale. When she described this experience I
noted that her unborn child was swimming in a sea of amniotic fluid and asked
if she had been in contact with this child. The strangest look came over her
face as she accessed the memories of the experience. Her mind seemed to slip
out of gear for a few moments, and then she burst into a smile of amazement.
She had, indeed, been in telepathic contact with her unborn child, and in those
moments of introspection she merged deeply and thus consciously reestablished
that connection. Immediately the persistent restless agitation of the child
within her ceased. She commented, in surprise, that the child's behavior
inside her had suddenly changed, and that she now had a loving bond with the
little boy baby. She was amazed that a change of attitude on her part could so
quickly and dramatically effect the behavior of the baby in her womb. Her
whole attitude toward the unborn child changed and instead of calling it
"the alien" she began referring to him by the beautiful name she and
her husband had chosen.
On the last day of her training she came in slightly
agitated because she had a design project at work that was due the next day,
and she had not even started to think about it. She was a toy designer and was
skilled in making computer renditions of the toys once she had decided upon the
kind of toy and the colors and textures and sizes and other parameters. But
coming up with the ideas and parameters was always a struggle. Before she went
into the chamber she asked to be reminded to start her toy design work as soon
as she was finished with her session, as there was an important deadline on the
project the very next day.
During her alpha session the toy design was accomplished
with grace and ease and entirely without the usual struggle. She started
thinking about a theme for the toy and sorted through dozens of themes until,
while considering one particular theme, her alpha tones increased markedly.
She took this as a confirmation of the wisdom of using that theme on which to
base this toy. In the same way she thought of colors until one particular
color combination increased her alpha tones markedly. In the same way she
determined the textures and fabrics and the sizes of the components of the toy.
When she came out of the chamber she was calm and beaming. She asked for a
piece of paper and rapidly sketched the entire toy including the theme or story
that would be written to go along with it. All the colors and textures and
fabrics were clear in her mind, and that night she implemented her vision on
the computer, producing a color model of the toy. The next morning she
delivered the completed design to her workplace, for the first time having
accomplished a design project without struggle. She had used the alpha
feedback process as a stimulus to and as a guide of her creative processes.
She had established a loving and accepting relationship with her unborn child.
And she had done powerful forgiveness work, which allowed her to place all her
biggest problems into faded photographs in an album, which she could then put
away and forget. After her new child was born, it soon became apparent that
the possibly excessive attachment to her 3-year-old was mellowing into a loving
and supportive relationship with all her four beautiful children.
A Happy Ending (and a Happy Beginning ...)
About 18 months after the beautiful baby boy was born, I had the
opportunity to visit the Mother at her home. The baby clung to her like
it was attached and would not let go. She told me that her bonding with
the baby was so remarkable that it would not go to anyone else. Not even
the baby boy's Father was able to hold him. As she was exclaiming
excitedly about this and giving numerous examples of how the baby would
not go to anyone other than herself, and as she was telling me how
remarkable she thought this was, she was suddenly interrupted. We had
been sitting on the soft, deeply carpeted stairs near their front door,
when almost simultaneously the telephone rang and the doorbell rang. The
Mother had to put the baby down on the second carpeted stair step above
the floor in order to answer the telephone and the door at the same
time. In the twinkling of an eye the baby boy clambered up into my arms
and held on to me the way he had been holding on to his mother for his
18 months of life. I was delighted with the baby's warmth and affection
and sat quietly with the baby's arms wrapped around my neck and with my
left arm supporting the baby's back. For about ten minutes we sat like
this while the Mother finished her phone call and finished dealing with
the person who had come to their front door. Then the Mother came back
to sit with me. A look of astonished disbelief flashed into her face.
She said loudly, "He has never gone to anyone except me! I can't believe
it!" The baby looked at me with a quizzical look, wordlessly asking if
he had done anything wrong, and I hugged him as I said, "It's OK.
Everything is OK. I love you and if you want, you can go back to your
Mommy now." With a look of reluctance and a hint of guilt that was
remarkable for an 18 month old child, the baby reluctantly and slowly
left my arms and went back to his Mother who had sat down next to me on
the staircase. The baby continued to look at me with wide open eyes
filled with love, almost drinking in my presence. The Mother and I then
discussed the obvious implications of this remarkable event. The baby
had instantly recognized me as the agent of his reconciliation with his
Mother during the time he was still in the womb, which had been a very
difficult time for the fetus and the Mother, who had hated the fetus and
kept calling it "the alien." The Mother's hostility toward this baby and
her harsh rejection of this baby was magically transformed into
acceptance and love through the Mother's Biocybernaut alpha wave
training, and the baby knew me almost 2 years later as the agent of this
powerful emotional healing. About twenty one months later, after the
healing event in the Mother's alpha training, the baby recognized me and
rushed into my arms instantly in a way it had come to no one other than
its Mother. This was a wonderful blessing and a truly angelic reward for
my helping to heal the Mother's aversion to her fetus of her unwanted
pregnancy. It also speaks volumes about how much children still in the
womb can know and remember about the world outside the womb. This
child's love and trust and recognition continues to magically inspire
the work I do.
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